The Day With A Post – OMG
Added at 11:08am and filed under Silent Hill, awesome, family, gaming, health
This sounds so stupid but honestly: I had no idea that it was going to take this long to start feeling better.
I’m going into week five of recovery and there are times when I feel as crappy as the day I came out of surgery. Everything aches: everything makes me ache. I’m sick to death of being at home, staring at the walls, but whenever I venture out – like Monday, for instance, where we took S to the Doctor Who exhibition (again) and to see Monsters vs Aliens – I spent less than ten minutes walking and two days in agony paying for it. I’m DESPERATE to go back to work – no, REALLY I am – but right now I just don’t know when that will be. It’s fucking ridiculous.
Anyway, apart from the great big, complicated laceration both vertically and horizontally across my insides, things are . . . well, kind of dull to be honest. It’s why I haven’t blogged: “woke up, laid on sofa, ate dinner, went to bed” doesn’t have much appeal, particularly if that’s repeated day after day after day. For a month I was going nuts, home alone, and for last week – and very probably for next week, too – I’m going nuts trying to keep S occupied as he’s home on Easter break. I feel so bad for him. :( As I can’t drive nor walk very far we’re completely housebound, and there’s only a finite number of things you can do in a static environment and we used them up about six days ago. Still, the Doctor Who Special is on this evening, so that should keep us busy. Those of you who follow me on Twitter will know that S has successfully dragged M and myself down with him into his Doctor Who obsession, and we’ve spent the last week winding ourselves up about the Easter special and lamenting the departure of the delectable David Tennant. Much like S’s love of SpongeBob – which developed when he’d just turned two and has outlived Spiderman and Ben 10 three times over – we very much hope that this one sticks. We all love Doctor Who now. Let’s just home the regeneration of the Doctor late this year doesn’t kill that off for good. :p
As for keeping myself occupied . . . well, for weeks I couldn’t do anything – physically or mentally. The latter bit has completely thrown me as I really didn’t anticipate that. So despite surrounding myself with books and games and DVDs, my desire to interact with anything remained a big fat zero. It’s only been in the last ten days or so that I’ve started to feel a bit more like my old self and been able to pick up a book or my XBox controller again. Trouble is I still can’t sit or stand in one position very long, which means doing anything online hurts like a motherfucker, even now. I’m left resorting to precariously balancing my Macbook on various parts of my body for three minutes at a time – not fun. And probably not wise, either. Thank God for a handful of truly excellent friends who have been popping in – with lunch or chocolate or both – and keeping me company once or twice a week. I don’t think I’d have made it without them keeping me sane.
On the plus side, since getting my mojo back I’ve finished a chapter of my book that’s been kicking my ass since last summer, and I’ve been once again immersed in the Silent Hill universe. With the announcement of a ‘reimaged’ Silent Hill 1 (WTF?!) and Homecoming dropping through my letterbox (not to mention newly acquired copies of the XBox versions of SH2 and SH4 to keep me busy) I’m excited at what the future will bring. Although lying or sitting awkwardly for most of my time, I’ve been working on the site, including mocking up a new design and sub-designs for the individual sections. The site’s been closed/dormant for about three years now following S’s birth and Dave’s post-Silent Hill 4 declining interest in the series, but now that I feel I have a bit more time – not to mention seriouz wordpress skillz – I know that I can finally make the site I WANT and not the one I have to settle for. Yeah, I know I’m nerd – but we already knew that, right?
What else? Oh, what I haven’t told you is that, since Christmas, I’d been on a bit of a health kick. I didn’t mention it properly because . . . well, FFS. How many diets have you seen me stop and start over the years? But this time it’s been rockin’. Up until my surgery I’d shifted just under 20lbs, and as I said before, the week of my op I lost a staggering five and a half. A month of lying on the sofa and eating shit later, I’ve only regained one pound. That’s not bad, is it? I just feel crappy because I’d just got myself into the habit of doing 30-45mins of exercise each morning before work – only the WiiFit but seriously, just 15 minutes Boxing is hard bloody work, let alone the step and jogging on top of that – and then all of a sudden I’ve been forced to stop. So although I’ve only gained a pound back, I feel fat and lazy and desperate to eradicate the spare tyre around my middle. I have an appointment with my consultant on the 22nd, so the sooner he can indicate when I can hope to pick up gentle exercise again the better. Otherwise I just feel all of this hard work has been for nothing.
Am getting sore now, so will probably leave it there. In the meantime, how are you – well? Happy? Healthy? Work/school okay? If you were here with me now, what would you be doing to keep my miserable-arse entertained as I recuperate? Answer in the comments please. :)
Finally – please go give love to Val. Today she gave birth to her second child, a gorgeous little thing called Kayleigh and while that in of itself is amazing, it’s nothing short of miraculous considering Kayleigh’s difficult journey getting here and her very early arrival. I’m deeply envious – my gnarled insides will never again allow me to feel an unborn’s hiccups or starjumps again – but I’m so, so happy for you, love. Congratulations.
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On 11 April, 2009 at 11:48 am, Veera said:
Man, you’ve been through hell. I thought I was going crazy forced to be home alone when work was slow but doing that AND having to go through all the physical pain? I’m amazed you’re still sane! *BIG HUGS*
I hope the Silent Hills will give you some entertainment at least, I personally didn’t like Homecoming… But maybe I didn’t give it enough time. Let us know how you like it!
On 11 April, 2009 at 12:34 pm, sharon said:
I blame D for getting me hooked on Dr Who (well, him and Captain Jack). Serves me right for dating someone even geekier than I am. Ho-hum.
Glad to hear you’re getting better, slowly but surely. The pain will go, I promise :) When you’re feeling 100% again I’m going to join you on that health kick; I’ll get the hang of that bloody Wii Fit boxing even if it kills me.
Oh yeah, and to help you recuperate I’d bring you the biggest Easter egg you’ve ever seen in your life. And inside it would be a sexy nekkid TV doctor of your choice ;)
On 11 April, 2009 at 11:30 pm, J said:
Wow – I can imagine how boring it would be to not be able to do anything. At least you are getting better, even if it is slow! I’m so jealous you have a Wii. I want one so bad but I’ve been doing my own workout which seems to be working to some degree but it’s getting easier!
I hope you keep getting better! :)
On 13 April, 2009 at 1:34 pm, rakebackgirl said:
Must be really tough not being able to get around and do what you want to.
I used Wii Fit to lose a few pounds after christmas – enjoyed the boxing training so much I’ve started doing it a little at the gym.
Hope you enjoy Homecoming (which I thought rocked) and that you get better soon.
On 13 April, 2009 at 7:55 pm, Vixx said:
I’m getting there, thanks!
Not really tried SHH yet, Kaz, but will let you know.
J – I think any workout is a good workout. But I do like my Wii, it has to be said!
Sharon – Ooooh! Sounds perfect!
V xx